Bila Terasa Rindu...

Hati berdetik rindu...
Pada siapa?
Aku pun tak pasti... Mungkin aku tau, tapi cuma kurang kepastian.
Hati sendiri pun tak boleh nak tau, ke?
Orang kata... ikut kata hati, mati. Ikut rasa, binasa. Sebab tu laa aku tak mau ikut hati or rasa.

Bila terasa rindu, ku sebut namamu..
Dengan harapan kau 'kan muncul dalam tidurku...

Ikut kata Dafi dalam lagu, aku tau siapa yang aku rindu.















Aku rindu kawan-kawan sekolah aku.
Aku rindu memori masa kecilku.
Aku rindu lah kat semua orang yang untuk beberapa tahun kebelakangan ni,
aku tak pernah pun rindu!

Dasatnya tak pernah rindu kawan-kawan lama? Manusia ke ape ko ni?

Dulu, aku benci memori. Aku cuma suka apa yanga ku nampak kat depan.
Dulu, aku hilangkan diri dari kawan-kawan. Kononnya nak capai kejayaan sendirian.
Tapi rupanya, betul la orang² tua buat pepatah...

Susah nanti kawan lama jugak yang dicari....

Tapi aku bukanlah susah sekarang. Cuma rindu yang berkoyan-koyan!

Rindu kat sama??? Terlalu panjang list kalau aku nak senarai dalam ni. They should know who they are. Tapi yang lagi aku rindu... are.... them......... Hairani....Ekin, Gie, Zilah, Iza, Qucah, Mastura... Nurul Fayzieana, Yatt Klong, Dayah Tapri... Joanne Oo Chai Yi.... errr...ramailah lagi. Tapi ini yang sangat klimaks la kire....... rindu giler nak lepak sesame...

Hurms.. but most frens are getting married. Think... maybe some of them, are. Huwaaaaaa could u gals please listen to me????????? Ring me please!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS U GIRLS MUCH!!!!!!!!

A Different Saturday....

I had my lil different Saturday this time. I went out to OldTown Cafe Gombak seeing Asma, regarding the upcoming school's event - working on pre-planing stage. To my surprise, she did invited few more of our frens. Shadot, Ely & Fendi also popped-up last minutes. Tim, another friend met in UiTM while visiting last years back also were there.

When it is about MARRIAGE.

Spending not really hours discussing and updating informations on the event, we continued sharing stories. Main topic..... 'Who are you with now?' Hahahahahaha... when it came to the same answers' repeated every each meetings.... it ended like 'Hahahhaha... we're losers!' Quite a pathetic thinking aite? But that's the fact. We came across few wedding invitations, and those past ceremonies. Big bunches of CONGRATULATIONS to all my new-married & soon-married friends..... When will it be our time? Another laugh bangs.

The beauty of their dreams and strength

They are really into great educations. Having professional certs... jut came back from overseas' study... planning to operate franchisee... I am so proud being a friend of theirs. But deep inside my heart... I am a loser! I don't even manage to finish my degree. I quit before I graduated. Now... all I had is just a SPM cert. The advantage of me is that I got experiences. Yet, still felt so inferior. Having their business cards in purse... hearing their stories with professionals... damn it! I wish I could share themthe great experiences of mine. But they were soooo close to each other before. Carik alasan untuk tak rasa bersalah..... They studied in the same colleges, same fields, living in the same neighborhood... were in the same class at school.... argh! I should have never kept myself apart from them! I shouldn't have did it!!! Those old days....

The end of day

We finally dismissed after a late midnite show in Capsquare. As Angah were joining me & Asma. We went to makan besar in Kg.Baru first @ a Thai restaurant named Johan Seafood. It was delicious, the taste. It is reasonable, the price. It is satisfaction, the tummy~!

I reached Mama's home at almost 3a.m. And what keep puzzling in my mind were still the same questions of the day... the short hours, yet a big thoughts~!

.....Manusia dan Teknologi Mudah Alih...

Dunia hari ini........... sangat berbeza daripada apa yang aku bayangkan masa usia kanak-kanak dulu. Tak pernah aku terfikir, apa yang cuma mampu aku imaginasikan, hari ini ketika aku melangkah ke usia jubli perak ini... aku bakal berhadapan dan mejai sebahagian daripada ia.

Awal-awal pagi aku sudah bergegas ke ofis. Seperti kebiasaannya, kutunggu bas yang setia menjemputku di hadapan blok tinggalku dan dituruni aku di stesen LRT Ampang, nun. Sekilas megimbas kad Touch n Go ke mesin iu, aku sudah bisa menolak palang yang menghalang perjalananku. Tren akan tiba sebentar sahaja lagi. Sila berdiri di belakang garisan kuning.... And it goes. Menjalar panjang di hadapanku sebuah keretapi elektrik dengan fungsi yang lebih changgih. Aku menjejak masuk ke dalam perutnya... menunggu bunyi bip dan bergerak meluncur ke tengah kotaraya.

Seringnya aku kurang melihat-liha memereka di sekelilingku. Seringnya aku lebih gemar memainkan jemari ini di papan kekunci Motorola RAZR V3x yang dihadiahi Sara tahun lalu. Atau adakalanya ketika hati berdetik rindu, aku lebih gemar perbualan bersama Mama menemani perjalanan yang pendek itu. Namun pagi itu, dek kerana kekurangan tidur malam sebelumnya mungkin, aku lebih senang merehatkan mataku daripada melihat apa-apa. Mindaku cma menunggu announcer ketibaan di Maluri, kononnya, Entah ada sesuatu yang seakan terpijak kakiku, lalu aku membuka mata. Kulihat insan yang terpacak di hadapanku. Raliknya membelek SMS. Lalu ku jeling 2 insan duduk bersebelahanku. Juga bermain dengan mobile. Aku angkat kepala ke kananku, juga.. masing-masing bertangankan pelbagai bentuk kejadian manusia. Kupaling ke kiri, O2 menarik pandanganku. Sepintas aku terlihat brother di hujung sana sama juga membelek PSP nya....


Oh manusia dan teknologi. Teknologi mudah alih dan kehidupan manusia. Tak pernah aku terfikir ini fenomena di kala aku menjejaki dewasa. Tak terduga juga oleh ku secanggih ini peredaran masa membawa aku. Lalu perulahan aku mengukir senyman. Mujur aku tidak terlalu jauh daripada mereka ini. Setidaknya, aku punya asas untuk iba-tiba menjadi salah seorang ahli forum jika gerabak tren itu menjadi landasan perbincangan teknologi.


Hurms............ aku mahu belek pula teknologi manual dia ofisku untuk ku seragamkan dengan kehidupanku.....

Critical Time...

Huwaaarghhhhhhhhh ! Can't stand staying in a pale, dull color of the house. Bit of bit, it is killing me softly. Just imagine, how could a plain, dull, died white wall to do with very pale, dying light green frame borders??! Huh! The time is over. Can't stand it. Tot.. with installing new lamps... re-arranging the furnitures, it will somehow enlighten it. Yet..... really need a can of paint!

But what color to? Huh! This is another big part of it! Need to think... really think, mix and match them out. help me out, please.
Okay now let's do brainstorming... this is just remind me to those days in college.. brainstorming to bed.

Current Curtain Color : Turqoise with Orange (Embroidered sheers)
Furniture : Safe all-black

The rest... no need to care about.


So, what's the best color shall I pick? What if................ pink? Too gurlish. Purple...? That's roomie. Green? Yuck, a few days trial maybe. Yellow? Doesn't make so much difference?! Hurm.......... how about a mural drawings on the wall?!! Actually, it was back to my first idea to re-decor the house. But my housemate doesn;t really interested into it. Maybe... it will be soooo fancy. Yet she is into simple, modern, rigid style. I am into the colorful, funky and fancy mixtures...

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh~! Never mind then. I'll use the Google to advice me on this. Catch ya later then bloggie........ Time to surf~!!!!

When it's time to write....

When the idea comes, the time became soooo tight. When it's free hours, then the idea is already fell asleep. Now... I already loss my ideas that have been ruined with tones of works! Arghh I am gonna sign-up broadband connection at home very much soon......... (peeping into the purse....glups...)

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Farahiyah, my childhood bestfren is going to engage another of my-guy-next-door this very soon. Huhuhuhu, I heard it from Mama last week end holiday. So, I picked up the phone and simply dialed her numbers.

Me: Hye, may I speak to cik Farahiyah, please?!
She: Yeah, speaking. Sapa ni?
Me: Oh, sorry to bother you. Are you currently busy to entertain me?
She: Eyra????????? Hoi! Lama tak dengar cerita... ape cer????
Me: Hahaha.... Ape cerita aku plak! Ko tu la.. ape cerita??

She laughed. Happily. Oh I am very happy for her. We had a short conversation as she rushed to a meeting appointment. Ending the phone call...

She: Hey... kau bila lagi?
Me: Aku? Aku nak jadi bridesmaid yang unggul... lepaskan kawan-kawan dulu, baru aku senang hati~!
She: Hahahahah... bagus. Apa-apapun, aku punya ceremony, make sure u r there!
Me: Of course babe. You're my bestest friend in town!

And we hang up with dozen of smiles. She must be so gloomy with the engagement ceremony setup. Finally, she got the right man for her life. And of course, I'll contribute as much as I could possibly do for her, and her happiness.

For me, myself? Ahahahaha... I kinda missing someone recently. Keep him in mind, somehow makes my heart felt smiling all the time. Do I still hope for another chapter of love with him?????????????

Oh no! Not now..... hahahahahahahha~!

But what to bother now is.... could I possibly slimming down another few kg before the day??????!!!!

New Babies In House~

Recently, I felt liked owning few lil properties on my own. Precisely saying it as my new start-up investment to life. Seeing people spending some saving in creating easier life, I finally decided to buy these new babies....



Canon Powershot S5 IS. A semi-pro camera for photography lovers. Oh, I miss my old SLR... (which is nowhere to locate after being borrowed...) However, I might be seen liked a-first-timer user. I lost my skills already! (..if only Che Mat heard this...)



I brought the new-born baby's home. Luckily I was as my FREE-PAID models are home, visiting their nanny. Thanks to my beloved sister and her hubby for bringing them home. As I am happily exposed the flashes to them. Lots of shots, hundreds in a weekend. I'll share the shots soon.

My elder baby is my another precious.... My precious... (sounded like Gollum in LOTR... hahahahha) Same model with my eldest bro, bought from the same shop. Oh my, how happy I am for having these two babies.


HP Compaq Presario V3000. With Windows Vista - Home Basic Edition. 1.8GHz Intel Core2Duo Processor. 160 HDD Space... and bla, bla, bla as it follows that I don't really care with. Only that I need to re-upgrading the RAM soon, by this month salary.. I guess.


So,what else in the world shall I buy now? Enough for the time being. Back focusing to my home interior decorations. After 3-months stay, I think we might do some improvements..... hehehehhe. Till it looks like what we want it to be~!

Yeaaahhhaaa.. time to do some home arrangements! Gotcha later~

Ceritera Cinta

Sedang asyik aku leka dengan daily routines ku, aku kebelakangan ini menjadi sensitif lagi dengan cinta. Bukan kerana aku terjatuh cinta atau bertemu cinta baru atau apa sahaja yang mengaitkan aku dengan cinta... sebaliknya tentang CINTA dan MEREKA yang di sekelilingku. Bahkan, ada tatkalanya aku terasa bagai tertampar sendiri melihat semua itu. Ada sesetengahnya membuatku tersenyum sendirian. Malah jua menangis di dalam hati....

CINTA dan manusia. Cinta dan ketulusan hati. Cinta dan pembohongannya. Cinta dan penyeksaannya. Cinta dan kemanisan. Cinta yang menjanjikan kemesraan. Cinta yang membawa kebahagiaan. Cinta dan penyudahnya yang berlainan.

Kenapa harus ada hati yang jatuh cinta pada milikan orang? Tidakkah itu penderitaan? Lebih derita pabila tidak hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan, namun masing-masing tak tergapai cinta dan citanya.... Ada pula yang cuma menaruh luahan hati di sanubari, berdetik hanya di jiwa. Masakan si dia yang 'digilai' tidak menyedari aura itu? Mustahil sudah! Lebih pahit tatkala cinta lama berlabuh lagi. Sekadar pula meneguk penghilang dahaga, dan pergi belayar menjauh semula.... Dan.. semuanya berakhir dengan kekecewaan lagi.

Ada jua.. yang ber'gadai' segalanya demi cinta. Biarpun dikritik, ditentang keluarga... namun akhirnya bersatu jua. Direstui semua, dan memulakan hidup pasangan bahagia. Ada juga yang sekali terjumpa, lansung terpaut hati lalu berjanji sehidup semati. Mudahkan ceritera cinta itu?!

Oh begitulah cinta. Setiap orang mempunyai route yang berbeza. Setiap hati ada sensitivitinya. Dan setiap cinta juga.... senantiasa ada akhir ceritanya.

Semoga semua orang yang bercinta hari ini, akan kekal buat selamanya.... Amin ~!